My week in a nutshell. A small nutshell.

This week has sucked, ya’ll. If you have been apart of my week via Twitter, Friends, Hubby, Moses, you didn’t technically suck or make things sucky, I’ve just been in a slump. Largely in part to the fact that I pretty much quit P90X cold turkey after one week. That wasn’t my intentions or desires, it just kind of happened. We did great the first week but were constantly struggling with the food preparations. It felt like my entire day was centered around eating and cooking and prepping and eating; it was consuming every hour of my evening and I became bitter. We both got bitter we barely spent time together and by 10 o’clock after dinner, Moses, working out and turning around to cook for the next day’s lunch we were exhausted. I love food but I don’t love it controlling my life. We had full intentions of sitting down to modify what we were eating and make this a lot easier but instead we ate Chick fil a and sweets and junk. As this week has progressed I’ve started to feel worse and worse with no desire to work out. I honestly think not working out mixed with eating crappy has caused my body get into a slump. I’ve had every intention to turn things around but failed daily. This weekend we are headed out of town but by Monday morning I’m turning this train wreck back around. On a positive note the P90X workouts are great. Normally one hour a day with an extra 20 minuets of Ab Ripper X three times a week. They were very easy to follow and could make people of all different shapes and sizes sweat. They also show you every weight lifting technique with bands mortification so we were able to avoid buying a full weight set and save a lot of money. Keep me accountable and by this time next week I hope to have positive news.

What was I thinking?

I promise this will not be an everyday topic but I am right in the middle of suffering and needed to share. Yesterday I felt on top of the world with P90X and the 90 day time limit felt obtainable….today, not so much. Well let me backtrack with the rest of yesterday. The rest of the meals/ snacks went great and I actually couldn’t finish my dinner. We waited two hours (once Moses was in bed) to start our first workout and it went well. I was able to do the entire video (maybe not for the full time allotted) and struggled through ab ripper x; the main point was it was a good day. This morning I woke up excited about my protein shake for breakfast but then around 9am started feeling real hungry. With snack time an hour away I realized I didn’t have my protein. I figured lunch was so tasty I would just wait but by 11:15 I was starving. After eating lunch I’m sitting here feel discouraged. I’m hungry, well not starving, but hungry enough in about two hour I’m going to need food. My afternoon snack is 2 oz of cheese, that’s it! And then after work I have my aerobics class so I’m looking out a 7pm dinner. That’s over six.long.hours away! I’m just scared and craving sweets. When I say I had an addiction to sweets I wasn’t lying…it’s killing me to think for the majority of the next 88 days I won’t be eating sweets. I’ll be snacking twice a day and that’s it. I know I can push through but the impact this program is going to make on my everyday life is really hitting me and I’m scared. I need to push myself, one day at a time, to do this.

I have not consumed a sweet all day, what's wrong with me!

It’s here! It’s official! Today marks Day 1 of P90X. I’ve spent days charting out exactly how much food we’ll need as well as shopping then prepping for this coming week. One thing I like so far about the program is the variety in their meal plan option. I opted to stick with the meal plan because it told me exactly what to eat opposed to having to decide portions and choices of proteins, vegetables, ect. They also offered easy to follow recipes for all the sauces and meals; this allows me to eat fresh tasty food and sub out things I may not like (like hearts of palm, yuck!). The food is a mix of veggies, meat, protein, and some starch.
Not only is this program going to help me get in shape but it’s also expanded my normal daily cooking. We are actually enjoying complete home cooked meals all week long. This weekend I made lemon-dill sauce, butternut squash soup, vegetable soup, roasted red pepper soup, and gazpacho. Tonight we are eating salmon (chicken for me) with lemon-dill sauce, wild rice, asparagus, and red pepper soup. The recipes were large enough that I individually froze each item by portion and will last us the first three weeks. I can simply pull out the sauce and warm it up while the chicken is grilling and we can keep dinner at the same time we eat now. Every meal throughout the week is different so I’m won’t be feeling like “this again”; after week 1 you copy the same schedule for week 2, 3, ect. There are three meal phases to the program and we are hoping to stay on this “fat burner” stage for 3-4 weeks. I’ll be excited when week 4 comes and a whole new set of recipes come.
I am filled with excitement and determination but at the same time scared to death! I know the work out videos are hard stuff and my doubts of even being able to finish Day 1 are starting to outweigh my optimism. This is a huge change not only for my diet but for my body. It’s used to eating sweets every day and taking an aerobics class twice a week; not ball busting sweat every.single.day for three months. This is day 1 of 90 but it’s also day 1 of the rest of my life. My eating/ exercise habits have to change because I don’t want to live like this anymore; and I’m hoping P90X will transform the exterior as well as the interior.

My goals for this week:
- To not break my diet one single time
- To workout every single day, even if I can’t physically do all the video demands
My 90 day goals:
- Loose 30 pounds! (yeah, that's right, 30!)
- Be able to do all the physical components of the hour long work out! (which includes pull ups!)
- Drop 2 sizes in my clothes; I would love to wear the 7 pairs of jeans that sit in the back of my closet collecting dust!
- Feel great about myself in a swimsuit!