I once sang the chorus of a Brandi song acapella as an audition piece for a middle school play; I did hair and makeup that year

Have you ever stared at a dead person? Not just a quick picture, but sitting on the ottoman about 3 feet away from their face just staring thinking the person I loved is no longer there. Well body is there, face is there; he could just be taking a lazy afternoon nap, but he’s not, he’s dead. I am being blunt, yes. Am I emotionless, no.

I’ll never forget that day, those feelings, the look, the clothes, the blanket, holding Davy’s hand as he lead a prayer, the white sheet placed ever so softly over his body before they took him away, and the 100’s of other details I’m not brave enough to type into words. Christmas day a pack of Oreo’s sat on my mother in laws counter and as I slid back the wrapper tears filled my eyes because that was his thing; they should have been on top of the fridge because that was the secret-not-so-secret hiding place.

I had lots and lots of words yesterday, but now they’ve all escaped me. Boo staying busy at work yesterday when the mental pencil was flowing.

To Do:
- Bake squash casserole
- Compile pictures to load onto my digital picture frame to bring into work
- Long(er) term: print pictures of Moses to update my desk and
- SUPER LONG TERM: finally, finally, finally, update Moses’ baby book
- Get my mind around Moses’ birthday party in less than 2 weeks

To Do Tuesdays

First I want to back up to last weeks To Do Tuesday and defend myself as to why I never finished thank you cards… it’s because I lost my spreadsheet! An organized spreadsheet kind of girl is great if she actually remembers where she tucked it! Now that my trusty information with everyone’s names/ gift list/ addresses/ and most importantly if I’ve sent them a card is gone, I’m at a loss. Still not sure how I’m going to fix this one, but hopefully but next week I would have come up with a solution and completed them!
Moses birthday is quickly approaching and once the holidays are over it’s going to sneak up and bit me in the butt! This birthday is pretty important to me so I’ve started planning early. So much so that I’ve already purchased and printed invitations, came up with a guest list, and addressed them all! They will go out by the end of the week to give everyone a heads up of this MAJOR BIG DEAL BIRTHDAY! I won’t get emotional yet, because it hasn’t quiet hit me that a ONE YEAR OLD is no longer a baby. (So I guess this subject qualifies for TO DID List).


After two flowing paragraphs, I can’t take it anymore…I’m caving for a list.

To Do:
1. Get pictures of our ‘3’s a family’ first Christmas
2. Thank you cards (grr….) (I love thanking people, hate the thought of pulling them all out and actually doing it)
3. Find a new day care for Moses. Another subject entirely too big that I’m forced to rave about it on TallyMom’s discussion board because I know NO ONE wants to hear about boring details of child care centers.
4. ** Start proof reading my spats of writing. I just went back and saw how awful my spelling and sentence structure is! I really do write EXACTLY how I speak.

Maybe my mind is blank, or maybe I’m just THAT good, but I don’t really have a huge list swimming around. I feel like all my stockings are in a row (tehe I’m cheesy) for Christmas, my house is decent (just don’t open doors), and I’m not stressed. Sorry I don’t have much to offer for this To Do Tuesday. What’s on your list?

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To Do Tuesdays

To Do Tuesdays. Tuesday is the day of the week I’m allowing myself to talk about goals, wants, and needs. They can be actual or a mind set, a list or a dream, long term or in the next hour. Comment what your To Do's are if you feel the need to shout it from the rooftops!

My To Do's:
1. To start getting things accomplished. I’m Mrs. List. The problem is once those lists have been so beautifully formatted I can't seem to check everything off and then some. So many ideas, thoughts, list form in my head I just end up with so many lists and nothing to show for.
2. Most immediate goal- wedding thank you cards. I wish I had the guts to just call everyone up and blab about how thankful I am, but people may think I drank too much water in Mexico.... so intern I’m stuck with a huge list (yes...beautifully structured thanks to Excel) of names, addresses, gifts, have I wrote the note out, have I sent it (I’m crazy for making a column asking myself if I did something, I know).
3. To bake and master the Croissant
4. Making my newest love for coral red and robin egg blue come alive and sprayed throughout my home. I’m thinking the living room, but I need to fall in love with a pillow fabric before I can be certain.
(*I want you all to know how crazy I am... as I am writing this I caught myself numbering my thoughts into piles.... it's seriously something I can't control!)
5. This one is a mind set. At the end of the day being happy I played with Moses and snuggled with my husband instead of checking off a list. To truly loose myself in love and laughing and playing is the best To Do Tuesday goal I have... and the hardest.

Until next Tuesday I’ll try my hardest to keep these thoughts to myself

Different kind of list.

All my blogs lately have been me blabbing about how busy I am. In all this busyness I want/need/am still finding happiness. Instead of writing another ToDo list here are things that make me happy:
- My new laundry room/ spare bathroom is BRIGHT orange

- Moses’ new jammies. Slim fitting pants that are snug around the ankles and a matching long sleeve T shirt that is snug around the wrist. He looks like the “biggest” boy wearing them

- Moses being happy when I sing at the top of my lungs randon (awful) songs in the car

- Leaving work for lunch

- When the TV is off and we play on the floor

- It’s officially holiday season

- Actually being able to think about the holidays starting December 7th

- Grey’s night

- The thought of getting a new phone (today)

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