nine.

This is why I would never call myself a “blogger”, I can’t even stay consistent with blogging once a month! It’s been way too long since I updated last and I hate myself for it because there are so many little details I wish I would have wrote down while still fresh in my mind.
Biggest thing going on, 5 more day’s until Moses’ due date! Five days, less than a week, ah! We went to the doctors yesterday and I have had the same progression for three weeks in a row now. 1 cm dilated, 70% effaced, and he’s sitting around -1 pelvis station. So he’s placed himself in a nice little spot, and 70% is a good number, but for three weeks in a row now…. Come on Moses’, give us a little progression forward! I want him to come when he’s ready, and I’m not going to have them induce labor (unless medically necessary), but it just seems so discouraging that he hasn’t budged in weeks! Most people say 1st babies come later than earlier, plus I’m content with him not coming on Christmas (TOMORROW), so I guess he can just hang in there until he’s ready. When mom was pregnant with Danyell she went to the doctors and they told her o you have a while don’t worry and then that weekend sitting on the toilet her water broke and Danyell was born three weeks early- so you really never know when they’re coming!
Tomorrow or two weeks away, he’s coming regardless and I’m so excited, and extremely nervous at the same time. Because I love to have a plan and control over most situations it makes me extremely anxious knowing I will have no idea what his birthday will consist of and have no way to put it on pause or go back and do it different. I feel a little better now that most of the stuff being packed in the hospital bags is sitting on the floor in piles ready to be put in the bag, and we have a birth plan and phone list typed up ready to go. His nursery is all set up (I love it and need to learn how to post pictures on here!) and the car seat is in my car (although Davy and I are convinced we did it wrongL).
I don’t know if the emotional side has really overwhelmed me yet because it hasn’t really registered, I’m going to be a mother to someone for the rest of their life. Davy and I will be parents and take care of someone else’s life every single day. It’s a responsibility that’s completely foreign to me and I think will stay that way until the day he’s born. Someone will call my mommy and I will be someone’s hero at one point in their life. It’s a roll that you can read up and practice only so much until its reality and I’m holding him in my arms. My friend Sarah Gray keeps telling me that moment when they put them on your stomach after their born is something she will never forget and advises me to feel take in that moment and treasure it.
I could go on forever but will wait until after Christmas to update again. I promise to keep more frequent with my thoughts and details.
Who knows….the next time I sign on Moses could be here!

eight. and a half.

I just wanted to post a side blog with all the details of the engagement! So Wednesday night after church I went to have coffee with my girlfriends. All three of my best friends (Sarah, Melissa, & Beth) agreed to come and hang out which I thought was just wonderful because we never all get to hang out on a week night. So we get our drinks and sit down to talk and Anthony (Melissa’s husband) calls her and starts telling her that the radio station (one I don’t listen to) is doing their around town scavenger hunt trivia game. The game was: the say a riddle about a certain place in town over the radio and then the first person to crack the riddle and get to the location wins $5000 ($1 bills) and 4 tickets to the “Walking with Dinosaurs”. So she starts saying the riddle and something about the road Betton. Well conveniently the coffee pub is very close to Betton. So we, well mostly me, starts freaking out and decides it’s a great idea for all of us to jump in the car and play the game. Well of course a competition, money, and dinosaur tickets are all right up my alley and so I’m immediately very into the game and very determined to win. Let me just pause and say Melissa did such a good job playing along, the way she was talking to Anthony and acting so nervous and excited had me completely fooled.
So the riddle has something to do with a bench, and tree and swing and peddles. Our first thought is the park off Betton, so we pull in and already I’m demanding beth to drive over here and shine her lights over there trying to find a matching description. So we see a bunch of rose bushes at one side of the park so we take off that way on foot looking for the prize. I’m yelling at beth telling her to pull her car off the road and shine her lights at the flowers so we could see better but she was acting all dumb and wouldn’t do it knowing what was coming. So here we are with cell phones in hand trying to light up the ground. We found a bench and feel under it trying to find some kind of clue. So we are having no luck and I’m getting bummed because it all made sense that the prize would be here. So then the girls start asking if there are any more rose gardens around here, me, being angry at slacker beth and sarah (for standing by the car and not really helping) starts to get frustrated because of course there is no other flowers in the park.
And then all of the sudden I remember my dad’s girlfriend lives off Spruce road which is off Betton rose and right by her house is this beautiful rose garden. So I freak thinking no one else would think of that and we all pile in the car and head that way. Emotions and excitement is peeking and Melissa starts saying comments like “we could really win this” and “this has to be it”. So we pull up the rose garden and I’m yelling to beth to drive on the grass to shine better light on everything, she claims she doesn’t want to get in trouble, so we end up parking and practically running over the this bench by the swing. We are feeling under it but nothing. Then I remember inside the rose garden the tree with a bench built all the way around it. So we all start creeping threw the rose bushes and by then the girls are so far behind me acting almost scared. I yell “you’re going to make the pregnant girl walk first” and so we get to the middle of the garden and there are all these cut roses sitting around the bench. I make the comment “looks like someone just got engaged” but even at this point I’m still oblivious to whats really going on.
Then out of no where all these lights turn on. Christmas lights were wrapped all through the tree and rose bushes and my first thought was WE WON. We had found the location and the prize was ours. In a sort of confusion we are all kind of just standing there and then this guy, all dressed up, comes walking down the pathway towards me. I thought this has to be the radio DJ because we just won. As he got closer I realized it was davy. “Davy?” I asked in complete confusion. The thoughts going threw my head were “why is he here, he’s supposed to be at work, did he already win?” then he walks up to me and as nervous as could be dropped down to one knee! (tried to say the sweet things) and asked if I would marry him. At this point I was in total shock. Of course I said yes and tears were flowing with the best emotions I’ve ever felt. ( I’m currently tearing up writing this at work!) He was so nervous that he just handed me the open box with the ring in it, so as we were hugging I whispered “can you put the ring on my finger?”.
Out from the bushes comes his best friend Joe, and Anthony. Then my sister and dad and jan come walking over from across the street and by this time I was just beaming with excitement that all the details of how the set it up and devised a plan just added to the perfect engagement! How could someone love me so much so to have thought about this for weeks and planned every detail to come out just perfect? I have the best fiancé and can’t wait to be his wife for the rest of our lives!

eight.

I looked at the baby counter and 46 days left seems to have come so quick. Maybe because so much has changed since I last blogged that I feel like it’s all coming to an end (and well beginning at the same time) so soon!
First, we signed the lease and started moving into our new place! I love it and wish I could start living there now, just half the house is still in boxes and the bed is currently an air mattress. My nesting is now stronger than ever so even if I just go over for a little bit each day and unload a box or clean up an area it makes me feel good. Thankfully, we already have most of the big furniture or the stuff we don’t have people have given us. The only big thing we’re missing right now is a TV stand for our new massive TV and a dresser for Moses’ room. I can’t wait to walk in the house with it all set up and decorated and it finally feel like home.
Second, we got engaged! It happened on Wednesday the 29th, I’ve just been too busy to blog the details. Lets just say I was completely surprised and Davy did an amazing job planning it all out. He had me in tears, and laughing, and overwhelmed with happiness.
Third, and currently happening in less than three hours is, my work baby shower! Today is going by so slow anticipating the excitement of this afternoon. It still baffles me how people I work with would put effort and money into someone they barely know! Everyone is walking around so bubbly today just as excited for me to open all the gifts, and see the cake and decorations as I am! I can’t wait to blog about how great the shower was, but I already know it’s going to exceed my expectations!
Just an update on the birthing class, it’s amazing and also exceeding my expectations. The class is just for informative and Vikki is teaching us things I never even knew about during delivery and has just completely calmed our nerves about the big day. Davy also loves the class and that has made it a total bonding experience; I know that on the big day he is going to be the best coach! I feel so relaxed and call me crazy, but have even considered not getting an epidural!

seven.

62 days left seems like an eternity…..
I have nothing but good news to share. The biggest thing is we found a place to live! Well, hopefully. It’s this great 2/1 in Killearn that has a big carport and screened in back porch. It’s higher than we would have liked to pay, but still within out budget. The reason I say hopefully is because it’s not ours yet, we have to submit our application today and hope it gets approved! We really want the place, and the renters would love for us to move there, it’s just a matter of our application going through. Keep your fingers crossed and pray that it’s ours by the first of the month!
Another exciting thing is I started a completely new project at work. I won’t bore with all the details, but it’s a much needed change of pace and work the past two days has actually been enjoyable!
Finally, we started our birthing class last night (or as Davy likes to call it, our “breathing” class)! I was a bit nervous/ anxious driving to the class because I didn’t know what to expect. What the teacher would be like, what the other people in the class would be like, and just overall if it would freak me out even more about d-day (or b-day). Thankfully, it was better than I expected. There is only four other couples in the class with us and most of them seem pretty normal and have the same kind of fears I do about labor. The teach is my good friend Lauren’s mother who I’ve already heard is a good teacher, but never knew how knowledgeable she was! The first class we just introduced ourselves and talked about discomforts of pregnancy and ways to prevent/help them. The class is 2 ½ hours long each week, which seemed like a long time to learn about birthing, but in actuality there is so much she wants to tell us, she had to cut herself off. And another I thought was funny is we have snack time halfway through class- I feel that’s only appropriate with a room full of pregnant women! I hope we get a lot out of the class and when the actual day comes we can practice some of the moves and not just lay there and freak out!

six.

The day has come. Stretch marks have arrived! Since my mom and sister didn’t have them barely at all, and I’ve been applying the stretch mark lotion for months now, I figured I would get lucky, but no! So far, four little ½-1 inch stretches have appeared on the low part of my belly. Davy actually had to point them out because my belly sticks out so far I couldn’t even see them until I looked in the mirror! I’m not too worried about them because they are so tiny, but we still have 9+ weeks to go, and in that time fifty more could appear! I’m (as well as Davy) excited about post baby getting into shape and my ultimate goal is to weigh/ feel better than I did before I got pregnant! Hopefully the recovery will be easy and I’ll be motivated enough (with four hours of sleep a night) to get into shape fast!
It’s Friday and I couldn’t be happier! Work has become so routine and slow lately, the days drag on making everything move in slow motion! I know I can’t stay up until 2 am anymore, but at least I can stay up as late as my body will allow knowing I can sleep in the morning! This weekend we are supposed to be viewing a few move places and I'm really excited to see if any of them work out, or could be put on the list of serious potentials..... I'm so ready to move!

five.

(october 20th, 2008)
10 weeks to go, I can’t believe it!

The time creeps by day by day, but when I step back and look at the big picture, only 10 more Mondays (maybe less) before he’s here! Not this past weekend, but the Thursday before that I started to experience cramping in my upper legs and lower abdomen that night. I went to sleep and woke up with the cramps still there. All morning at work it felt like I was experiencing terrible period cramps and since I no longer have a period, I thought something was wrong. The pain wouldn’t stop so the early afternoon I called the doctors and they told me to go into triage to get them checked out. Hearing you have to go to the hospital because something could be wrong is not a good feeling. Especially only being 28/29 weeks at the time, I knew it couldn’t be safe for Moses’ or me to already feel like this. At the hospital, they hooked me up to monitors and saw some small contractions going on. They checked me out and everything seemed to be closed and normal. Nothing serious enough to do any more test, so they sent me home with instructions to take Tylenol and rest. The rest of the weekend was normal but Monday morning the pain was back. Since I had already been told it was nothing serious, I just took Tylenol and dealt with it, and slowly they calmed down and only came sporadically the rest of the day. I’m assuming they were just extreme Braxton hicks because thankfully I have not had them again.
Work is throwing me a baby shower on the 13th of November and I’m so excited! i have gone to two baby showers recently and it just makes me so happy seeing all the cute little stuff and I can’t wait to open everything Moses’ will someday use. Mom told me yesterday she knows of two people making him blankets! I can’t believe people would take the time to make something so special for someone they’ve never even met. I have great friends and blessed tremendously.
Last week at the doctors the scale said I had gain 5 lbs in the last two weeks, and that scares me to death! I’m not over the weight limit yet, but all the sudden instead of being on the lower end, I’m at the upper end! I really need to be careful these next 10 weeks watching what and how much I eat. Especially with the holidays coming up I have to be extra careful I don’t blow up!
We only have one more pre marital counseling session left and that’s extremely exciting! I have loved all the sessions and most of the homework because each time I feel like I learn valuable advice and have already started seeing some of it play out. It has been great for our relationship and I hope it only continues to get stronger! Everything is closing in towards the end of the year and instead of being stressed like I normally would be, I’m so happy and looking forward to it all actually happening!

four.

(october 6th, 2008)Happy 28 weeks today, the weeks seem to go by so fast now a days…. But his birthday seems so far away!
So we’re once again on the issue of bedding. The two hardest things so far have been picking out a name (which we have now and love) and picking out bedding. There are just so many options and ideas and directions you could take the nursery, I just can’t make up my mind! Two months ago I thought I fell in love with once and mom bought it offline for me… but the more I look at in the more I don’t like it. It has tans and light browns in it as well as a light green/yellow stripe as some of the background color and it just doesn’t match the rest of the bold animals. So I started looking around online again and found some I really like. They had a great deal the set on e bay so I bid on it yesterday and was the highest bidder for the last 5 hours. By 30 or so seconds before it ended someone outbid me and I lost! I cried due to disappointment and hormones! It was just such a great deal, and the only listing for that bedding on eBay, so I’m pretty bummed we didn’t get it. But that doesn’t mean I’m giving up. I just need to look around and not settle, or spend too much on something I know I will like for more than two months!
The weekend was nice, too bad it’s Monday and I’m back at work. Davy and I went on a brunch picnic Saturday morning because the weather was so nice. We went to the Indian mounds, which I haven’t been to since I was little, and it turned out to be a perfect place to get away and enjoy the amazing weather. We also watched FSU beat Miami (yay) at his parent’s house and I finally hung out with my good friend, Sarah Kate Saturday night.