Boo.

Moses’ most recent discovery is the idea of being scared. About two weeks ago either a program was watched or a story was told and in that scenario someone was scared. We thought it was adorable when we walked into Publix and he noticed the Halloween decorations, pointed, and said “scawey” or clinched Davy’s shoulder in the party store while walking past the mask. However this idea of scary has grown so large in his head he has become scared of situations such as walking into the playroom with the lights off or walking down the hall to his bedroom. It makes me sad that he quickly run downs the hall in fear after realizing it’s dark and he’s alone. So many instances as a child I remember fear ruling my life so much so I would cry if I was forced to walk to my bedroom with the hall light off. I am trying as hard as I can to relieve those fears by reminding him to not look or walking down the hall telling him it’s not scary but I’m afraid it’s already too late. I baffled by the thought a (almost) two year old can learn this emotion and it already rule their thoughts without ever actually being in a scary situation.

Growing up we celebrated October 31st with an alternative to Halloween by dressing up and going to our church festival. My mom never decorated scary, gave out candy, or let us trick or treat. In my tween years I resented that choice but now realize why she did it. Even though I don’t fully agree with her convictions as an adult Halloween is not that big of deal to me. I love the idea of putting costumes on and seeing friends but I don’t like the idea of scaring people or being scared. The joy in the fear of being scared is something I don’t understand and if Moses is already scared there is no way I’m going to encourage that feeling. It can rule someone’s thoughts far past October 31st and I hate seeing my baby controlled by it. With that being said I’m not sure what we are doing this year. Our church is not longer doing a festival and since Moses is so young I’m not sure if bracing the crowds at another festival would be worth it. He doesn’t eat candy and would not be able to say trick or treat so that idea also seems silly. I hate acting like the day doesn’t exist because costumes and friends are fun however I’m at a loss on where to take him. If I find somewhere fun to take him he is going to need a costume and I’m at a complete loss on that as well!